playground

hmmm... supposed to be sleeping at this hour cause gonna wake up at 6am tomorrow... going to this VAL training under MOE... boooo....

it's been a long time since i last went to a playground alone... just lying there and looking at the empty sky... and if your view is good you may see the moon... and a few shiny stars.... i always walk home and pass by this playground.. and always wanting to go there and just rest... but no chance... and today after a long day... after saying bye to jan... i decided to go to the playground...
the last time i went to a playground... prob during poly bah... with this person... ermz.. this friend... at marsilling... anyway....

the sky tonight... empty... dark... i only saw 2 stars... told jan.. maybe i'm trying to be emo? thought about certain things... talked about certain things...

probably it's true that the things happening around me has make my heart grown cold... reminded that my God is not only God due to the circumstances around me... even when situations, people might change... but my God will not...

heavy.heart...condemned...

wanted to go east coast park after prayer meeting... didn't know jan wanted to go too... it's only when we were at the bus stop then we were like... !!! we got the same thoughts... but... if only... i have a car.... if only.... i can drive..

gonna sleep... tomorrow... another whole day.. bye...

hurt my spine.... told jan i'm a problem kid... i've got an injured knee... previously was sick.... now i got an injured spine.... *please don't ask me see DOCTOR!*

*recently keep having negative thought... what if i really have a terminal illness?*

JANICE GOING CYCLING NOW WITHOUT ME!!!! BOOO!!!