God's Word

Psalm 51:10- 12
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

playground

hmmm... supposed to be sleeping at this hour cause gonna wake up at 6am tomorrow... going to this VAL training under MOE... boooo....

it's been a long time since i last went to a playground alone... just lying there and looking at the empty sky... and if your view is good you may see the moon... and a few shiny stars.... i always walk home and pass by this playground.. and always wanting to go there and just rest... but no chance... and today after a long day... after saying bye to jan... i decided to go to the playground...
the last time i went to a playground... prob during poly bah... with this person... ermz.. this friend... at marsilling... anyway....

the sky tonight... empty... dark... i only saw 2 stars... told jan.. maybe i'm trying to be emo? thought about certain things... talked about certain things...

probably it's true that the things happening around me has make my heart grown cold... reminded that my God is not only God due to the circumstances around me... even when situations, people might change... but my God will not...

heavy.heart...condemned...

wanted to go east coast park after prayer meeting... didn't know jan wanted to go too... it's only when we were at the bus stop then we were like... !!! we got the same thoughts... but... if only... i have a car.... if only.... i can drive..

gonna sleep... tomorrow... another whole day.. bye...

hurt my spine.... told jan i'm a problem kid... i've got an injured knee... previously was sick.... now i got an injured spine.... *please don't ask me see DOCTOR!*

*recently keep having negative thought... what if i really have a terminal illness?*

JANICE GOING CYCLING NOW WITHOUT ME!!!! BOOO!!!

indifferent?!

receiving... hearing... hard messages these few days...

tough to listen to... but... i know...

hmmm.. ya...

indifferent?

*i need a break... a getaway from this place... anyone wanna go with me? :) like... soonz?!*

huiling ask me to go for mission trip next month... should i go?

esplanade

monday = esplanade day?!

:)

went to send my phone for servicing... wait soooooooo long... BOO... and there's this person beside me... saying.. she just collected her phone from servicing last wed and on sat the phone spoil again... ahhhhhhhh... i scared my phone also like that lor... less than 1 year only leh... sianz...

then went to esplanade to look for jan... nice weather... nice place... :)
is esplanade becoming one of our hang out place? hahah....

sick... but thank God for friends...

ok... i'm sick... was feeling those kind of fever feeling the first thing i woke up on Friday morning... and i was thinking.. ok.. i should msg my boss and tell him i will come to work abit later.. just abit more sleep....

but i decided to drag my feet and get to work... and the body ache feeling starts coming... and the body temp keeps getting higher....

after making sure what i have to bring and do i decided to go home at around 2pm... wah.. the feeling was really really bad...

and due to the concern of some colleagues, almost the whole office knows about it... =_=

it was really a bad thing to fall sick...my whole body is aching... and i cannot sleep... just tossing around on my bed... one moment i was soo cold.. and the other moment i was so hot... and my head really hurts...

that was my friday...

sat... i didn't go GB.. youth... and the mooncake festival @ CDC...

my fever went off only at around noon... after my fever.. then there's this sharp pain in my stomach.. and LS... wah... i go toilet like so many million times lor... the pain was around till today.... but i guess i'm ok now...

thank GOD for friends for being so concern... with the various calls... and smses...

to jan
to come to my house and to DISTURB me last night...
keep asking me to see a doctor...
"thanks" for looking at me during service when pastor mention that certain word... just to remind u.. pastor says... if he is talking about certain ppl... please dun look around and see who he is talking about... !!!
sorry for making u worry...
not knowing what to do when u see me in pain but just to say SEE A DOCTOR!

to dr quek...
for calling me...
trying to get me to see a doc as well...
making me promise.. but i did not break the promise...
sorry for making u miss ur soccer match...

to FRIEND
for calling all the people he knows in WAC to tell them that i'm sick.. and get them to get me to see a doctor....
i think you called alot of times to jan and dr. quek?
the various calls... to ask if i'm ok...
not knowing what to do.. when i dun want to see a doctor...
asking jan to come and see me... and to get me to see doc... but she failed to do so.. hehe...
getting more and more serious each time he ask me to see a doctor...


THANK YOU!

i was listening to this song on my way to church...
it really speaks to me....
why am i using my own strength? when i can do greater things in Him?
why am i using my own strength? when i know that by doing that i am weak...
why?!

just finished speaking to sier not long ago... i guess he's right... sometimes when we are sick.. it might be a new point.. that we want to start afresh with God... and i believe that it was so true...

no more turning round and round... i wanna start afresh...
i know that i have been going down in my walk... and i actually thought of just taking a break from everything? *just a thought* but i guess Pastor spoke on this point today as well... i just need to spend one moment with You

i just want to hang on to the one thing that i need to..

ooo... finally found this lyrics online... this song that spoke to me...
You in me by Juwita Suwito - very nice voice singer... :)

Everytime I look into Your eyes
There's a pleasant surprise
awaiting me and amazing me
Somehow I realize I'm so tired of the lies
they keep telling me

Telling me I should look down inside in myself
to find something greater

When I know I can look at the bright sight
and find the Creator

I just need to spend one moment with You
Somehow it's a brand new world I'm passing through
You lift me higher, You let me see
Over the walls that surrounded me

Don't need to prove myself,
just need to show and tell
It's You in me

The other day a wolf in sheep in disguise
Told me goodness would buy
a day or two for me in Paradise
I could never pay the price, not with a million lives
But it' d done for me

Why should I just depend on myself and pretend
I'll find something greater

When I know I can look at the bright side and find the Creator

I just need to spend one moment with You
Somehow it's a brand new world I'm passing through
You lift me higher, You let me see
Over the walls that surrounded me

what i found on youtube...

Evan Almighty

woooo... we went to watch Evan Almighty...
not bad... quite nice... and JAN! i didn't sleep lor... :)


woohoo.. i finish my film!!! can develop soon!!!

i have a funny pastor...
before we left... met him to pass him something...
Him: are you coming?
Me: nope...
Him:where's Priscilla?
Me: at the other side waiting for me...
Him: where are your going?
Me: Orchard
ok.. bye....

and when we reach orchard.. he called and say
Him: hey where are you? you not coming? we are at IMM waiting for you
*after hearing his 1st sentence i knew that he was trying to be funny... *
Me: huh... not going la...
Him: we bought cake... waiting for you...
Me: Huh?!
Him: no la.. you not coming arh... ok BYE

=_= yeah...

what if?

what if...
one day you wake up and find yourself not able to say a single word...
how would you react?

what if...
one day you wake up and find yourself blind...
how would you react?

what if...
one day the doctor says you have some terminal illness...
how would you react?

what if...
you have only one day to live...
how would you react? or... probably what would you do?


and what if... what if...

it seems weird... the way things are... i dunno...

feeling real bad...

ok... i'm feeling real bad and sorry...

i did this to my friend...

won't go into details.. but... i accidentally cut his wrist....


i'm REALLY VERY VERY SORRY FRIEND!!!
*ahhh.. feel so bad... *




have been having dinner very late nowadays... like 9+ 10... not very good... booo....

booo...

to think i fail again.. BOO!!! so lousy! ahhhh :(
the next one is november... so long la...

jan.. i think i should change my phrase to...
"if only i can pass my test..."


my knee hurts... especially when i was sitting down.. then i try to get up.. it hurts...
then i feel that it's kinda swollen those kind of feel...
then asked my sis.. she say abit... swollen.. when i didn't tell her which leg is swollen...
*now i'll try asking my mum...

RPWS Concert

wooo... yes... it's 3.27AM now... and i'm still awake... just reach home not long ago...

RPWS concert...
3 cheers to RPWS... :)
you guys did very well...

1st concert... GOOD!

whoa... TRCC stage is really very cool.. the way they keep the platform woohoo.. coolz...

RPWS is going to TAIWAN!!! woohoo!!! so good right... dunno can go with them anot... but need money... any sponsors? hehe... date is 26 dec... to... dunno when yet...

after the concert... wait till everything done.. count money.. it's already like near 12... then cab down to geylang.. eat porridge... then walk to eat dou jiang you tiao... and now back home...

:)

i dunno why... but the things that was said... affect me... and i will think more.. maybe it was just a simple comment... but i would think that there's something more than that... shucks... GLADYS!!! Stop thinking too much...

i can't believe that i'm in this position... i thought these are the things that you saw on tv only... but...

A Beautiful Mind

i have totally no idea why all these things is happening...

you might just smile through the whole thingy.... but does it really make no impact on you?

sier was sharing about being Spirit led...
before the session.. the book that i'm reading was talking about A Beautiful Mind...

what are the things that you think about?

every single thoughts... either it will draw you closer to God or bring you further away from God...

am i drawing closer of further?

*let me be Spirit led.. the things that i do, the things that i think about...


i have a dateline to meet... to do WAC Brochure... but i have completely no idea on the design part...*have i prayed to ask God to give me ideas?*

*side track*
hmmm... really admire/like guys that can play piano... wooo... so nice.. haha... girls also nice lah... but more impressed by guys... muahaha...