sorry...

i'm sorry...
if i cause you to be upset because of the things i do...
because of the things i say...
because of the things i don't do...

i'm sorry...

saying that you cared... and do not want to see me like this...

i.....

*i n e x p r e s s i b l e*

i n e x p r e s s i b l e . . .

a feeling that i cannot describe with words...

contradicting myself... with the things i think... the things i say... the things i do... feel so dumb....

i guess... let me disappear from this place... to a place where nobody knows me again...

hate me bah...

GB Camp

lalal... ok.. here to blog...

woohoo... ended GB Camp! woohoo... kinda enjoyed it... although some stuff was like last min... thanks to violet and ivy.. i keep shooting violet to do last min thingy... haha... i think she hate me... haha....

the camp was good... a few girls that i didn't really talk to before... through this camp... got to talk to them and build up relationship... and girls get kind of like sticky to u those kinda thingy.... u can really see which officer really build up relationship with the girls anot... i mean... it's really by the way we present ourselves to the girls... and the girls will then relate to u...

ok.. this is crazy... but i wanna have another gb camp again! love the girls... and i believe the girls really enjoyed it... although the planning was tiring... tough...

they are like full of energy, when the officers are all like bones breaking those kind of feeling... but the girls are not lor... and they wanna play play play... so have to be hyper also.... haha...

:)

4/3 gathering....

back home not long ago.... from 4/3 class gathering.. it turned out to be a 4/3 girls' gathering... cause all the guys cannot make it... and benedict says it's all girls so he dun want...

8 of us went to holland v. settlers cafe... me, mao, cindy, manping, veron, qianhui, stephanie and mrs lock (eng teacher) :)

had quite a lot of fun... actually already sore throat.. and after all the screaming.. laughing it feels like it got worse.... haha...

it's been 6 years since most of us last met.. it's quite good that we meet up... next time have to get the guys all the come too... :) will it be another 6 years? haha...

yeapz yeapz... see if i can get the pix from them... :)

it matters...

it doesn't matter if something/someone doesn't matter to me...

....

anyway... yes...